Vendetta Red Album

A stranger to you but
I've known you forever you're my flesh and blood
You gave me this life and made me hate you for it
The distance in years but time is a cloud and a whisper
The anger gives way to a sickness
for a home that I've never known
Alien innocence
Face down 'til you make me forget how to breathe
Tongue tied so I bind you unwilling to me
Fear not the voice of the serpent inside
We'll stand still and pray
for the storm to subside and leave us soon
The fear of the dark no warmth in the arms of a monster
A chemical contacts' course of incision
Your fragile refrain the seconds they chisel our lives away
like a sick circadian conundrum.
Will you leave me alone again
knee deep in hopeless despair?
Will you waste your days in hiding
haunted by memories of me?
Finally your one shot and love but you blew it.
Darling you failed failure
And pain is all you have left

Something soulless told you it hates you.
They wear their sheepskins, but you are the monster
Breathing men would kill.
Lucy don't go.
Hold me, haunt me.
Tinctures taunt you, when you are the monster
Breathing men would kill.
Blame me for this as you sit in your counting room
Coughing up blood just to spit it in my mouth.
Soon you'll be gone and the rain will wash you away.
Tucked in and gagged now say your prayers
Lipstick tourniquets work when the poison
Begins to take hold.
And for what reward?
So the simple can suck on the rinds.
Breathing men would kill.

Never mind me I am just a moron in disguise
Posing as a poet with the incandescent eyes
Illuminate your features and much to my dismay
You're putting on your jackets while I'm begging you to stay

Keep holding still
Bit from the blade tore flesh from bone
Alone, a long, long time ago
And where the ash will rest I guess you'll never know

Because it's summer where you are
Summer I'm in love
Summer you were just a universe away

Fulcrum equilibrium I'm balancing between
Your wavering reflection and something I've never seen
Utopia is only universal empathy
Fastidious deliverance from our decadency

Keep holding still

Reminiscent screams like womb dreams
From ridding yourself of your own existence
The pendulum sways like an empty noose
Still your thought compress and you weep and sigh inside
Adolescent naivete spawned my optimism

Whose head you wore on your coat of arms
You're the champion of my bleeding heart

When you're shrouded in baptismal brine
For the dawning of the great rebirth
Don't forget your name when your number's called
Or you may end up causing the end of us all

Whose head you wore on your coat of arms
You're the champion of my bleeding heart

The sweetest symptoms of stupidity are lies
embed themselves in crevices behind your eyes
Half awake you'd stagger twenty flights a night
to hurl yourself headlong from heavens lofty heights
it's all over. The end is looming over us
In the shadow of its wings we run and hide
relax and take in the scene the hangman hangs alone
chapter two and here's another verse for you
Your vision lingers on this bleak and hopeless view
and every lie you ever once believe is true
sad enough even I believed a few

If this is your jihad then I am maud'dib
If caution cuts your cord I'll sever everything
Cause I can't stand hanging out pretending I'm okay
Regretting things I did and things I couldn't say
Wept and walked away, whispered weird
Finally face me now
It's alright if you hate yourself
I can show you how
Cause the call to arms come way too late
To wake me up this time
And all my friends just laugh at me
Cause I don't wanna get high

Make a wish upon your middle finger
wasting your affections on another dark haired girl
with skin so pale
its translucence pulls you in and chokes you up
I just came by to kill you nobody was home.
From hips to lips and everything between "collide"
she cried and chalked one up to her myriad of thoughts
Abscess. I'm trusting you to stab me in the back beloved betrayer.
It fell straight from heaven
burning brighter than your hopes of being one of them someday.
It bared its teeth and shook the ground beneath your feet
it held you close tore you limb from limb and then it left you.
Distraught disguised our abhorrence victimized
I died from laughing at your consuming lust for sustenance
A word could break ideas in comatose states as passive thoughts
strike at the only comfort I can't bare
I tried to please but only wound down on my knees
refusal to comply it ends in dissension from the self
An anchor to hell the vessel rests light on the shell
your grade school blasphemy is making my skin crawl

I sat on your step holding my head
It's all so clear to me now, I'm better off dead.
I stared at your son, screaming for help
I know how it feels now to laugh at yourself.
Harsh words heavy synergy
when i'm counting backwards again.
They'll tell you you're wrong, but you won't believe them.
Stuttering over the songs we sing.
Just for today i'm king, come and save me again.
Pour me a glass and tell me your fears.
I need a death wish to drown in your tears.
Lost in the sound, we'd stumble and fall.
Deaf to the secrets you'd kept from us all.

Let's pretend we're in the movies and kiss me with the tongue
And I'll become carcinogen and blacken up your lungs.
Impatient amputees are longing for a hand to hold
It's so hard to get the lead out when your hearts been made of gold
Who am I to say we shouldn't reconsider suicide
when we're so desperate for someone else to mourn?
You're the fracture in my frame,
and sometimes I wish that I was never born.
We disemboweled our enemies and left them for the birds
We suffocate in silence building fortresses with words
You'll prey upon the weak and fester underneath their skin.
I'll pray for sunny days to suck the poison from my pen.
Stand up and be accounted for make your presence known
before you lose your voice amidst this choir of liars.
So acrimonious in your inebriated arrogance
I'll fill your hollow abdomen with cinders, ash and coal.

They were carving caskets out of baby cribs today
When they sized me up I failed to make the grade
When they stole my sister I was underneath the bed
Chewing on my lip and trying not to breathe
So withered I will wander in the abysmal agony of failing
Crying out your name until I lose my voice
It's all coming back to me
Life's bitter mysteries. Clouded. confused
Amnesia arrested me
Called to me quietly
Murdered me violently
silently

screaming kamasutra at the brothel
we walk alone because we walk the line
never should repeat a rattled message
deprived us of the rights to exercise
dig too deep and you'll be digging your own grave
like me. Cause caution fell asleep at the wheel
write your own prayer
screaming bloody murder for attention
we're always hoping and it's times like this
where one by one we'd walk into the ocean
and drown ourselves with no remorse for one last kiss
starborn princess drunken bond with life
Vegas road by night and lack of luck
neck versus axe cardboard versus fire
I swear we'll shake it off.
someone make it better
someone make it a ok
someone make it easy
someone make it go away
someone take the reigns now
I don't wanna die alone
someone take the keys now
so I'll make it home

Cut from glass I start to fade and prance around her promenade
Thrown overboard to pay my dues, to the ocean floor in concrete shoes
I'm your visions of vindication that caught you in the act
I wield the force of destiny and you will rue the day you ever broke this pact
Stand me up in front of god so miniscule and monstrous
A paragraph to plead my ease. A defendant for this human race
Please don't forget me