The Mayfield Four Album

To me you are the warmest season
You have always been the brighest sun
These cliches will not be spoken
I'd choke on my lead tongue

So self-aware it's a burden
Forever crippled by the tendency
Please evict me from this shuddershell
So I can speak

This is so frustrating
I don't know what I'm saying
This loss for words seems
To burrow deeper everyday
I'm so misunderstood
Cannot relay the good
That's stranded deep inside
'Cause next to you
I'm at a loss for words

Don't confuse this for confession
Or as a plea for sympathy
It's just a window to soul bound
By all my insecurity

It's been about a dozen seasons
Since the boy became a man
Now he sees the forest for the trees
Now he touches just enough to feel
He's much stronger then
He was just yesterday

Won't get suckerpunched again
Gotta sink so you can swim
Ya know?
You never really learn
Till you fall and feel the burn
Ya know?

He looks back and has
To pitty where he's been
Then he smiles and walks away
There were days when it
Hurt too much to handle
Foolish boy had to
Learn how to dismandle
All those memories
That wouldn't seem o leave

There is a reason
Some reason for all of this
Affliction is a contradiction
To our happiness
Except to tose who know
Those who know

Once again I must fold
Give in get out before I'm broke
What was at stake
Means too much, too much to me
Tremble as I get up from the table
'Cause I gambled foolishly

I can take the drama no more
So I throw down my hand and say
It's over please forgive me
It's over I forfeit
So I won't bleed

The game played well for awhile
Just to hold, just to feel
Just to smile, it felt so good
To breathe again my angel
But reservation won't release

The risk I could not afford to take
Eclipsed all the love that you made
So I'll go

Are you growing weary
As you dance all alone
In a room that's resonating
With an old familiar song
Making you want the other
For awhile there wasn't friction
And alone you were at ease
But now and then there's something
That makes you want to be
Back in the arms
But you can't take it

It's always, always, seems to find you
What you want you don't need
'Cause she locks you down
So arn't you better off as one?

This prince with little purpose
Think he'll find it in the wings
Of an angel or a princess
But surley not a queen
But that's about the only thing
That he knows for sure
Yeah, he's the king of contradiction
Who changes everyday
One minute he finds peace and love
And the next he finds disdain
It's way to complicated
Things will never change

Always, seems like you always
Look for any kind of reason
To justify a means to jump back in

Do you really want to do it
Have you washed out all the stains
You seem crazy with temptation
And very very dazed and confused
Who's trying your throne
The stone inside you call a heart
Thaws just enough to beat
And familiar feelings come as you
Surrender to the needs of another
Not another

Always, seems like you always
Claim to have so much control
But you're suck a mess
When you're all alone
Always, seems like you always
Look for any kind of reason
To justify a means to jump back in

I sit alone and
Watch the lonely people
It's like I'm staring at myself
Because we're all the same
We all want the same thing

Everybody wants the other
Broken is the one
Put the pieces back together
Let love's will be done

Related by a constant
Craving that won't fade
Relief it seems so far away
When you have no one
Then you've got nothing

Everybody wants the other
Broken is the one
Put the pieces back together
Let love's will be done

-Solo-

Everybody wants to love
Everybody needs to love
Everybody wants the other
Broken is the one
Put the pieces back together
Let love's will be done

Won't you put me back together
Won't you put me back together
Won't you put me back together
Won't you put me back together
Won't you put me back together, yeah
Won't you put me back together, yeah
Won't you put me back together, yeah

If I had I drink... I'd drink it
If I had a drug... I'd take it
I'd do anything to peel away
The pain I feel right now
It's a mild December 31
And snow cries hard onto flooded earth
But it can't compare to tear-soaked beds
Shared by forbidden lovers again

One more time
Before we fade away
And turn the page
One last time
With a final kiss
Remember this 12/31

Now I'm the one who sits alone
It's my fault I can't hold my own
You see I'm broken down and bleeding from a
Six month scab we peeled away tonight

In the years last hour
The swan song will fade at last
And I will sing no more
So just let me go

Done it to
Myself once again
Breaking off
A piece for everyone
I gave in good faith
In you I believed
But these efforts to connect
Just segregate given time
Then walls grow taller
Not with bricks and mortar
But with distance
And indifference
And you trust like children
And you break like glass
Will you please
Put me back together?

Just for a minute
You were my best friend
What I gave
You took away

Swimming in a sea
Of nameless faces
Good-natured boy wants
The world to be his friend
Is that the rock
Tied around his ankle
That will drag him down
And drown him in the end

He needs a hand to hold
He needs a hand
Do you have one to lend?
Past to present
Is all he seems to know
Understand that's the reason
He's afraid to give again

Just for a minute
You were my best friend
What I gave you took away

-Solo-

It just bleeds into one anymore
So sad but common to throw
This blanket over all
Is that the state of relations
That I made for myself
'Cause it's cake and doubt
And I won't trust again
And the fallout takes it toll
The fallout takes its toll
On me and on you
When it settles will
We ever be the same
Time heals a broken heart
But the scars they
Never go away

Just for a minute
You were my best friend
Just for a minute
You were my best friend
What I gave you took away
Took away, took away

She tries to find the weak spot
To her I'm not a
Criminal she appeals
And wants the sentence reduced
Now I need to restrain
Don't want to give in
Let me pay for the
Crimes I've committed

Everything is caving in
From the weight of her world
My self-effacing
Fortress is too weak
To withstand the self-assured
Just get out while you can
He'll take it away
Once it's gone you'll understand
(Will you please)

Save her from myself
Don't want to hurt anybody else
So I build my castle high
Warning you to stay away

The war I think it's over
But nobody really won
As I stumble though the rubble
Then I see what kept
Her from getting in
A wary heart
And the thickest of skin

You've got me wrong
I'm not so hard
I'm not so strong
When this is said and done
I'll realign
I will resolve

He's the golden boy
He's the savior
He's the one
But there's another side
Waiting like a loaded gun

Just a wonder child
That has come to save the day
The hero couldn't fly
So he beats his little face

Another blackened eye
Another nail to my skin
I swear just one more time
Let me pay for all my sin

The self-afflicted wants to quit
This hurts so good I must be sick

The worst has yet to come
Tomorrow they will see
It hurts the ones I love
Much more then it hurts me

You've got me wrong
I'm not so hard
I'm not so strong
When this is said and done
I'll realign
I will resolve

Another blackened eye
Another nail to my skin
I swear just one more time
Let me pay for all my sin

The self-afflicted wants to quit
This hurts so good I must be sick

The worst has yet to come
Tomorrow they will see
It hurts the ones I love
Much more then it hurts me
It hurts the ones I love
Much more then it hurts me
It hurts the ones I love
Much more then it hurts me
Yeah
You've got me wrong
I'm not so hard
I'm not so strong
When this is said and done
I'll realign
I will resolve

He's the golden boy
He's the savior
He's the one
But there's another side
Waiting like a loaded gun

Just a wonder child
That has come to save the day
The hero couldn't fly
So he beats his little face

Another blackened eye
Another nail to my skin
I swear just one more time
Let me pay for all my sin

The self-afflicted wants to quit
This hurts so good I must be sick

The worst has yet to come
Tomorrow they will see
It hurts the ones I love
Much more then it hurts me

You've got me wrong
I'm not so hard
I'm not so strong
When this is said and done
I'll realign
I will resolve

Another blackened eye
Another nail to my skin
I swear just one more time
Let me pay for all my sin

The self-afflicted wants to quit
This hurts so good I must be sick

The worst has yet to come
Tomorrow they will see
It hurts the ones I love
Much more then it hurts me
It hurts the ones I love
Much more then it hurts me
It hurts the ones I love
Much more then it hurts me
It hurts the ones I love
Much more then it hurts me

Deep inside I feel the same
All the while reflections
Of the one that went away
Shine off these pale foour walls
Dissonance is the only
Song I want to sing
I would pray if I
Knew you were listening

Don't walk away
Don't walk away
I surrender, to you today
This bended knee is breaking me
I'll surrender
I surrender

Staring down the pages
Of saltwater memories
Emotion etched from the heart
That was bled so dry
There's nothing left to find
But the ashes of my soul

I surrender
It will be better
This is my vow to change

It stands to reason that some things
Were never meant to be
I should have known from the start
The race has been run
And all is said and done
Have the ashes been swept away?

Don't walk away
Don't walk away
I surrender, to you today
This bended knee is breaking me
I'll surrender
I surrender

The dial tone is all that sings
It's raining hard inside and far away
What's so new
This never-ending drama won't fade
My guts are coil and my only drain

Will this ever end
It's breaking heart
It's bruising head
Why does the good go so bad
All the joy is fading fast

The contradictions
They are killing me
This pretzel logic
Makes her hard to receive
So fall out again
And swallow me whole
Everythings changed
From blowing kisses
And throwing stones

Night trade with day
And let dawn begin to break
Once again she knows me to well
How to heal how to help

For awhile I am saved by her smile
And all the harm comes undone
Just soon enough to stop the flood
The overflow
Should her charm not hold
It could drown me today
Must the river run so high my love

You know your smile can
Dam the river that
I have of...you

Dah, dah, dah, dah
Dah, dah, dah, dah
Dah, dah, dah, dah
Dah, dah, dah

Rockets, moon shots
Spend it on the have nots
Money, we make it
Fore we see it you take it
Oh, make you wanna holler
The way they do my life
Make me wanna holler
The way they do my life
This ain't livin',
This ain't livin'
No, no baby, this ain't livin'
No, no, no
Inflation no chance
To increase finance
Bills pile up sky high
Send that boy off to die

Make me wanna holler
The way they do my life
Make me wanna holler
The way they do my life
Dah, dah, dah
Dah, dah, dah
Hang ups, let downs
Bad breaks, set backs
Natural fact is
I can't pay my taxes

Oh, make me wanna holler
And throw up both my hands
Yea, it makes me wanna holler
And throw up both my hands

Crime is increasing
Trigger happy man is policing
Panic is spreading
God know where we're heading
Oh, make me wanna holler
They don't understand
Dah, dah, dah
Dah, dah, dah
Dah, dah, dah

Mother, mother
Everybody thinks we're wrong
Who are they to judge us
Simply cause we wear our hair long