The Exies Album

Yeah, I'm nameless
Love found me lost
But then I'm thankful, thankful righting the wrongs forgotten
Blessings, blessings down on my knees
My soul is endless, endless and I'm so relieved
But if you must be concerned

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I'm on a slow drain as you watch me burn
I'm on my way back down
But if you must be concerned I'm
On a slow drain as you watch me burn, slow drain,
Yes I'm wasted, wasted end of my rope
But then I'm brain dead, brian dead
You make me choke new
Colic baby, baby kicks and it screams
My soul is endless, endless and I'm so relieved but if you
Must be concerned

I know what it feels
Like it burns from the inside
I know what it hurts like
Cause I've been wrong a thousand times
My bones are all cracked
Splinter deep in my back

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I'm still the same but we have changed
And now I have to live with my mistakes
Will I ever learn
I'm battered and bruised
Scratched on the inside
I'm losing myself I'm so sick of the lies
Dead ring in my ears the hole underneath
You're deep in my skin you're the splinter in me

You'll never know how hard I
Try to keep my head right
I miss all the bright lights
Shinning down like the sun burns my skin
Ten silver sets me free
Like the ones before me

Are you ugly?
A liar like me?
A user, a lost soul?
Someone you don't know
Money it's no cure
A Sickness so pure
Are you like me?
Are you ugly?

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We are dirt, we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
We are fake, we are afraid
You know it's far from over
We are dirt we are alone
You know we are far from sober!
Look closer, are you like me?
Are you ugly?

Turn a blind eye
Why do I deny?
Medicate me
So I die Happy
A strain of cancer
Chokes the answers
Are you like me?
A liar like me?

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I don't care, you don't care
I'm bitter, you're angry.
You don't care, I don't care
You love you, just like me
I blame you, you blame me
I'm bitter, you're angry.
You don't care, I don't care
You love you, like me

[Chorus]

Falling and unsure why am I losing my nerve
Wasting my time why do I only see this through the hurt

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I cant get it out of my head I cant get it out that
I do this to myself me and no one else
So help me tell me how to break free
I'm to blame and that's what really hurts
That's what really hurts
You get what you deserve

Jaded and broken
Out of place waiting my turn
Guilty fractured
And like you I don't know the answer

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I cant get it out of my head I cant get it out of my head
I heard the words you said to me

I do this to myself me and no one else
So help me tell me how to break free
I'm to blame and that's what really hurts
That's what really hurts

Your life, mislaid
Spoon-fed, well raised

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Hey you you're nodding out
What's this all about
Hey you you're nodding out
What's this all about
Hey you! hey you! hey you!
Hey you what's this now
Going down going down
Are you sorry now
Going down going down
What's your story now
Going down, why do you want to die

Black tar in your veins
Once new, now staind

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Your life, mislaid
Spoon-fed, well raised

You're in my head tormenting me
I'm running scared in my time of need
Cuts on my head cuts on my feet
I'm here waiting so baptize me
I need a reason I need to know just why
You were my meaning
Now its me you deny
You're in my head tormenting me
I'm here waiting so baptize me hole in myself
Kills by degrees
Gift of compassion
You gave to me
Blistered my hands
On your beliefs

Alright, alright everything is just fine
Here comes here comes a bundle of hiss
Alright, alright everything in my life is so
Fucked up fucked up I'm losing my grip
Some days I bleed, I fall like stone
I'm always afraid, I feel so alone, got a false sense of security
Giving me a real sense of insecurity
Messing with my head now, head down
What the fuck is wrong with me
A false sense of security
Is fucking with my head
Attention attention everybody look at me
Stand up stand up I need your belief
Rejection rejection always seems to follow me
Head down I need some relief
Some days I bleed, I fall like stone
I'm always afraid, I feel so alone, got a false sense of security
Giving me a real sense of insecurity
Messing with my head now, head down
What the fuck is wrong with me
A false sense of security is fucking with my head
Its easy to see, I'm flat on my back
I sigh and I scream, I'm under attack

You're pretending to be something you're not
You're collecting a head full of rot
You're self righteous, the butt of the joke
And its a secret, everyone knows

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You know you know you know you know it
You show you show you show you've shown it
My dear enemy, backstabbing me
Like a friend to me, like you seem to be

You think I don't see
You backstabbing me
Like a friend to me
My dear enemy
You're condescending with every word
It makes you happy but what is it worth?
You're like a virus eating my skin
Its a problem I think its a sin

Where did I go wrong
Cant look you in the eye
Feeling so ashamed
Feels like I could die

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Hold me up, don't let go
I've had enough
I'm tired of breathing
Tired of feeling
Tired of looking at the past for meaning
Tired of running
Tired of searching
Tired of trying
But I'm not tired of you

Losing everything
Its something I cant face
Hope is on the run
Its something I cant fake

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I want to feel a change
I don't mind if it hurts
You take away the pain
You're the only thing that's pure

Can you tackle me as I am
And the sting of my sweat against your mouth
You judge me till there's nothing left
You and your opinions wear me out

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You don't know me
I'm immune, I am free
Not a slave to your beliefs
I'm immune, out of reach
You're alone, stuck with your disease
You hate the things that I say, and who I seem to be
But you don't look so normal to me

Serve you daily rituals
Then make up the rules to suit yourself
Ill never be who you are
So why don't I just start to hate myself

I need a meaning
I need a soul
This circle is vicious but precious like gold
Don't push the river
Don't stop the flow
Dead in the water caught in the undertow

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You are the ocean I am a wave
Fell out of motion I lost my way
You are the ocean I am the wave
I fell out of motion

I learned a lesson I learned it so well
I wont forget it,  I've got a truth to tell
My last confession, my faith was long dead
I pushed the river was more that I could bear

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With a pain in my heart for so long

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I need a meaning
I need a soul
This circle is vicious but precious like gold
Don't push the river
Don't stop the flow
Dead in the water caught in the undertow