Saves The Day Album

And it's not fair why do I have to be so?
Oh I feel everything much more
Much more than you ever will
And it's too hard when I can't even catch your eye
I can't send you messages
At night I dream of reasons I can't let you go
But I don't know if it's time to crack through your walls
So thick that I can't see past you
(and last summer wasn't enough for me)
And now that winter comes the cold beats harder
And no one is left alone
And I'm offering you me right now
Take me I'm yours
And I won't have it any other way
So don't let fools be carried by what I say
The night keeps looking our way
And you're not seeing what I'm missing
'cause I am here missing you
And I think that we should run as fast as we can into what we don't know
Woah woah it's time to let me in
Woah woah it's time to let me in

Don't leave yet
It's still early and I haven't even said a word
And I'm hoping that I might upset you by saying what I want to
'cause it's not like you don't know I've fallen for you
But it's in my head and that's where you can't see it
And I thought that maybe if I had to
Bite the tips of my fingers I could stumble over words
And tell you just how far before I hit the ground
And I'm the type to think of all the wrong things to say
I will shut myself up and I'll never come out
I'll close all my doors only show you the black spots where my eyes once were
I can say this
I can say this
I can say this
I can collect myself deep down and then come out punching
I can collect myself deep down and then come out punching
And I'll scream out loud.

I said, "that boy's handsome"
A little bit of me wanted to be beautiful
Carrie said, "it's hard to look in the mirror these days when everyone
Has everything you'd rather be."
There's just something about his smile he looks so nice,
I wish i had friends like that
They'd always be there for me, i wouldn't look bad

So now I've made the decision
To walk behind you in the dark for the rest of my life
And I'll never show my face again
Because it's too scarred and bloody to be enough
And I don't have the right stuff
All I have are the empty boxes to carry away your heart
I think that tonight I will sneak into your house
And I'll sing songs and wake you up
And I'll take you blindfolded dancing onto bridges
And you'll say you don't to be with me
'cause no one ever does
And no one ever thinks of me that way
But I will even drive you home if you never let me forget about you
And if you promise me that I'm good enough for someone
'cause I've got to be good enough for you
Someday soon I'll get it right
And then you'll see just how good I can be
So don't ask me about forever because right now I'm feeling lost
So there's got to be some place for me because if there isn't where will I go?
Will there be some place for me and will you be waiting
Will you be there for me?
If and when we get there please catch me before I crawl all the way home
Catch me before I crawl all the way home
Catch me before I crawl all the way home
Catch me, crawl all the way home
Crawl all the way home

Three years and now I feel like completeness has set in
'cause it's something to keep time with time
And I know it's not true I can't keep on like this
'cause I know I feel right
And I don't think I miss a thing
And I remember when I heard that song sing,
"if the world doesn't understand then the world has to learn"
And maybe that's true but not everyone has to
When ten million people all believe in the same thing how could they be wrong
and what is sometimes?
There's a weight on my head but I know I feel right.
So I don't think I miss a thing
And I remember when I heard that song sing,
"if the world doesn't understand then the world has to learn"

Oh great
Here I go again I'm stuck in this rut
And I'm not sure how to begin oh should I tell you everything? oh
I'm feeling out of luck so I won't see you soon
'cause I know it's too soon for you to see me
If this is the last thing you do
Just tell me that it's o.k. for me to have these feelings for you
And that it's normal to want to call you.
Oh I'm dialing the phone and
I'm letting it ring for hours
Pretending to hear your voice
Why does my heart always beat before yours does?
After a while you can make yourself believe in almost anything,

So I said, "lets forget these days and just try to build some solid ground.
Maybe someday we could stand straight up with our faces in the wind
And scream to the world."
We were at some boating dock oh somewhere at the waterfront
Staring out across the channel
A steamer blared its horn
And I wished I could say everything right like do you want to go for a ride?
I looked to your facesaw the sun reflecting off your skin and
I breathed in water smells
The skyline filled with shipping yards
And factories had me dreaming of waking up
Am I dreaming? is this really me? because I've never felt so not lonely
And if this could be real right now
Everyday for the rest of my life I will search for moments full of you
But let's hope tomorrow won't cave in
'cause I'm looking for someone to change me
But let's hope tomorrow won't cave in
'cause I'm looking for someone to
And you make me feel so tall
I always want to be this tall
'cause maybe I'll be original
Sometimes things you say
Just make me think in different ways
So this is my way of saying
I could be the one who's dragged home at night
Away from all my hopeless dreams
You and me will forge some future because we don't want to be waiting
For something right to go to go to go to go wrong.

And I grew up
On alcoholic evenings and slow jazz music to keep my heart beating
Because after all that happens in a dissolving family
The need for a song to sing me to sleep still rings true
And I always knew
That there wasn't glue strong enough to sew these roots together
And now that I've wasted too many years
And I've lost track of where I started
I have to dream at night of who I was and why after twenty years of marriage
I am what is left and I'd like to go back now
And make myself up
I'd be a brick so I wouldn't feel
And I'd lift myself up
I'd throw myself at this house
To break windows and smash walls

I never thought I could watch someone come apart from the insides to outsides
But every day I see strings fall loose
And every day I see hope lost
With all this complicated I can't even get pass the thought of thinking
And wondering whether help or understanding rings truer
And I don't know how to do anything anymore for you
But I know that you should stop this world spinning right this minute
And take a look from higher up
And then you could realize just how broken your aim really is
So why don't you ask yourself to show up sometimes?
Why don't you stand up tall and kick yourself in the mouth
To remember and to get that burn back
And scorch your stomach and bleed that passion lost

Ever think we should try to re-establish that connection that we made
During the summer's days?
Maybe i should be subtle or maybe i should be more pure
I think we should talk about what we were going through
Wonder what it would be like if we had
Kept up that aversion and maybe kept listing
All the people that we hated
Isn't it ironic how you still have ideals and i still have nothing?
Isn't it ironic how you still have ideals and i still have nothing?
I'm hoping that you'll change so we can see straight some day, some day.
I'm hoping that you'll change so we can see straight some day, some day.
(so hoping that you'll change)
I'm hoping that you'll change so we can see straight.
(so hoping that you'll change)

Remember that last friday before we left for mexico?
We kissed and nothing seemed to matter
Like billie holiday might sing
And it rained and everything was going to be just fine
It was like music
And it makes me sad
To know I had gotten into something that I could not deal with
I will sit in my room and sleep all day
And think up dreams
Like I am the cutest kid in school
Or I could be crazy and sing about memories
I remember when I sat on those steps watching the moon
Chase the sky back until the world seemed like it would explode
And I could picture going up with it
It'd be just how I'd like to go oh oh and I'd sing.
Woah I'd sing.

Every day seems the same to me
I sit around and think about how alone I feel
Then I wind up rather enjoying loneliness
It's the comfort of being sad
'cause sometimes it feels so right
And sometimes I'd like to be around no one for ten straight years
But I know this feeling can't bring me places
And I know I'm losing lots of ground
But to keep up means to get up and why does it have to be
The world keeps on changing while I just stay the same?
I feel like being down doesn't mean enough to anyone anymore
So I got to let you know
And I guess the world has made emotion obsolete
And I don't think I feel the same 'cause after all
Who says what happy really means?
Tonight I will redefine everything
Tomorrow I will start in on my better days
And so each their own definition of happiness
But no one ever reaches it so I don't think I'll breathe that way
But happiness is when there's nowhere left to go
In that state of mind there is no state of self
So how was I supposed to know?
There's nowhere left to go
How was I supposed to know?

I called you up to see if maybe we could hang
And i told you i was nervous and feeling lonely
I bit my lip and you said yes
And i thought of how beautiful the night would be
And i thought maybe we could drive around talking about your town
Or we could just stay at home

Tonight I'll stay awake long enough to stop breathing
And I wonder how long it will take before I pass out drunk off night skies
And lying on hills with wet grass below and blue black above
I will carry all the weights tonight
'cause I keep remembering the day that you said you might go crazy
If you spent one more minute with me
I've been thinking about those days and I don't know
Is one more minute going to kill you now?
Stop before I say too much
So now I've been alone and it's been going but tomorrow might not come
If I don't let it
So don't forget the mornings that we spent deep inside out heads
Staring at blank walls 'cause that's what counts
I don't know but I'm trying to let you go
But I can't cut so well these strings I have around my neck
I'm trying to let you know I'm trying to let you know that I'm doing this by
myself
So now I've been alone and it's been going but tomorrow might not come
If I don't let it
So don't forget the mornings that we spent deep inside out heads
Staring at blank walls 'cause that's what counts
And I don't know but I am trying to let you go
But I can't cut so well these strings I have around my neck
I'm trying to let you go
I'm trying to let you go
Doing this by myself
Don't forget we sent letters to ourselves without words
And it was just to remember,
Just to remember,
Just to remember,