Gob Album

It seems so tough sometimes when you face a day with back to back conflict.
When you get pushed around you might stand your ground,
Might end up on your back, but
When you fall do you benefit and talk about it
When you fall do you get back up with your head above you
When you fall...

I choked back tears last night sitting alone in a restaurant, thinking.
How did I get so low how did I manage to sink to the bottom
When you fall do you benefit and talk about it
When you fall do you get back up with your head above you
When you fall... X3

Every thing's stagnant, inert and I feel so far away.
I've got so much more to accept, I've got so much more to say,
I felt sullen and depressed with thing I needed off my chest.
I've go so much more to accept I've got so much more to say.

(Chorus) I was beat up by the pictures in my mind, on these days
I saw heat and fire come to take your place, on these days
Walked thought brilliant light on my way to see you, on these days
I can't move at all with my feet in quicksand.

If you went a million miles away,
I would be sitting here wondering what to say.

I've seen the out come and I'm hoping that it never ends X4
Chorus

did you think i was blind
did you think that i couldnt see
did you think i'd just dismiss
your betrayal so easily
sick and tired of
sick and tired
sick and tired of your negativity
sick and tired
sick and tired of
sick and tired of your contridictions
you should understand in order to make change
more than just words and ideologies are needed
you gotta be down to earth so get it through your head
nobody appointed you any kind of leader
and to think i once trusted you
used to call you friend
i can forgive but i cant forget
i wont be hurt by you again
sick and tired of
sick and tired
sick and tired of your negativity
sick and tired
sick and tired of
sick and tired of your contradictions
you've got it in your mind
that you've been appointed some kind of leader
you've got it in your mind
you've got it in your mind

I heard your invitation,
So I got up to bat and I swung real hard,
I think I knock up the lights,
When I looked back, cause you had no idea where I was coming from

I think heard your shell break (you're bleeding)
And I could feel the pain (I'm leaving you)
I had the nerve,
To put up a fight, when no one else could reach inside to you,

(Chorus) Here you go this is yours a piece of mind a sort of restitution
Here you go this is yours a piece of mind a sort of restitution

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somethings on my mind
somethings change sometimes
i sit around out here and think

do you even know what's going on
cause i sure don't have a clue with you anymore

gotta wound inside
but i know i'm fine
sit around aout here and think

do you even know what's going on
cause i can't stand to hang out or even be
with you anymore (na na na na na na na)X2

with you anymore (na na na na na na na) x7

It's time to think about vital parts
And values to start to focus my attention on what makes me happy.
Advice and tips on some better way's to keep a friend
Straight from your pretty face to make a point of making contact.
I want to share things with those I care about, I've got so much in me.
I want to soak up what's pouring out from those who care about me.
I'm certain this time I'll make the change,
I'll at least try.

fractured life
your silence heard
it's what you didn't want
what others didn't see
painful past
you'd rather die
than try to explain
how it hurts inside

don't you think their future's filled with dire problems?
you clench your fist
you close your eyes
dont point the blame
you might find yourself the same

you terrify
you dare deny
this poor kid's life
there's not much more
to identify
when something's wrong
the end is near
there's not much more that I can do

You took it all
their innocence
left behind with scars
and shameful tears
it doesn't need
to be this way
it just seems
that it will never go away

don't you think their future's filled with dire problems?
you clench your fist
you close your eyes
dont point the blame
you might find yourself the same

you terrify
you dare deny
this poor kid's life
there's not much more
to identify
when something's wrong
the end is near
there's not much more that I can do

this bridge is falling down and just like it was before
its bad, and I made it recur
crossed the bridge and it caught my attention
an ocean diluting frustration
so I smashed it down in search of contentment
I fell down and into the ocean
now I am wet, shivering wasted
and I recognize my degeneration

I can see so clearly now
that I'm searching for simplicity
I can face the problem now
as I look into the mirror, I don't hate you

as a crutch when I am dependant
I reach out and it wont reject me
as a blanket when you need warmth
it surrounds me but it still feels cold

I can face the problem now
that Im searching for felicity
I can see so clearly now
when I look into your eyes, I don't hate you

another dollar fifty, another ride on the bus
the seat left alone is still warm
the person next to me talks to me
as if he knows me, but thats ok, I dont mind
I look out the window, while he talks on I do the usual

(Chorus) try to figure out what these people do in their own solitude
some seem so plain
some seem so lonesome, lost, depressed, and true
its all inside of you X4

wandering and waiting all your life for something new
to change you but it all seems to turn in circles, nothing's new
finding and learning all you need is something to guide you
nothing stimulates, no inspiration
Chorus... Chorus

its all inside of you X2

You used to shine like a diamond all the time
But now you forgot all your dreams forgot the times
That you had gravel in your knees and I raised you back to your feet
And now you're watered down there's nothing left burning inside

(Chorus) So many times I fell on my face and you lifted my spirits back to place
I hope the pieces are all around the puzzle of you, burying your past

And if that perfect smile isn't the perfect lie you're faking again
Wake in the morning bleeding from my back and dying
Because you neglect your heart
I have so many emotions, passions burning in my heart.
Chorus... Chorus

It seems so hard to find a decent place outside
With no need to hide, you can speak your mind. you can be honest
And you don't have to pretend you could brave the day
And wear a naked face...

but why do you loathe all your friends
Making cracks at their expense
If you choose a reason why, it would probably make you cry
While you fight with the still small voice inside.
You can read me like a book, I guess there's nothing to hide.
You could read me like a book...

but why do you loathe all your friends
Making cracks at their expense
If you choose a reason why, it would probably make you cry
While you fight with the still small voice inside.
You can read me like a book, I guess there's nothing to hide.
You could read me like a book... there's nothing to hide...

It seems every time we're driving down the trans-canada #1
The traffic's growing worse everyday it doesn't really help
When there's a bozo at the wheel slowing down cutting people
Off I don't think it's funny. Hit the gas, hit the brakes,
In a traffic jam I think I'm late for work got your license
From a cereal box you don't know how to drive you're just a fucking jerk,
It never fails getting on there's always something going
Wrong a lot of cars a lot of smog (well, not as much as L.A.)
It's pretty hazy when a blowout in a tire becomes
Such a big desire for idiots to watch, slow down it makes me crazy.
Think you know how I feel what I need is a new automobile
Like the game spyhunter I could enjoy anyone
Who would annoy set the missiles seek and destroy.

where it all began, cause i don't even know
but the shit keeps piling on top
You dont make amends and i dont understand
and you dont even know me

(Chorus) Someones holding on to me, i think i really should calm down
i can feel my adrenaline running trough my veins and blood
sometimes you can lose control and they dont understand
they take you for a ride then, they wanna hold your hand

You fought, you screamed and they dont even know what you have in store
You hear all the shit and you don't fucking care, you just have to ignore
where it all began cause i dont even know
But the shit keeps piling on top
You dont make amends and i dont understand
And you dont even really know me
Chorus

I break the bones to pieces in my hands my clenching fingers,
Were you the same all along did I just get bored
Why did I push you away
I still sit plagues with questions, your actions, your intentions,
Why couldn't you just talk to me
Was it that I just couldn't smile anymore
Tired of keeping it inside so I failed at you
And now I pass out every night i associate the worst things
With your face and I know you're at a loss from what
You threw away I just wish that you had left my innocence.
Even now I still wonder how you are truly concerned
That you're well even though you put me through this
Because I see that it's better off this way
When I think that it is right and I know that I'm ok.

Hard times and getting harder still but together we can make
It through these days hold on and take hold of this hand
We turn to each other to find strength there's nothing that
We won't beat together there's nothing that can stop us.
Help me, help me face my fear because I don't want to have to walk alone
And I make this promise to you to stand by you support you
To never let you down.

One day, I went out my door two men grabbed me by the throat
Mixed up with another guy couldn't fight they were way too strong
Beat me down, threw me in the trunk what the fuck is going on

(Chorus) Why do things like this happen all the time
Do things like this happen all the time? X3

They took a left, then a right, hit a bump,
the other day, walking down the street four men carrying bags of cash
Ran me down and then they lost a bag and i was happy until the cops showed up.
Chorus

Tell myself
The first time
That we didn't really belong
A day passed
A month's gone
And we've never felt so strong
Stand our ground and always say
"All we are is all we are"
No matter what they might say

It's strange how things work out
Mostly for the better
But sometimes
Someone adds their negative contribution

Stand our ground and always say
"All we are is all we are"
With open minds it will be this way
All we are is all we are

How did it get screwed up?
Screwed up
I guess with all these changes people fear
To try something other than what they're used to
With no meaning
Or aspiration, what do you have
To look forward to?

Tell myself
The first time
That we didn't really belong
A day passed
A month's gone
And we've never felt so strong

Stand our ground and always say
"All we are is all we are"
"All we are is all we are"
No matter what they might say

I see a red door
And I want it painted black
No colors anymore
I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by
Dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head
Until my darkness goes
I see a line of cars
And they're all painted black
With flowers and my love
Both never to come back
I see people turn their heads
And quickly look away
Like a newborn baby
It just happens every day

I look inside my self
And see my heart is black
I see my red door
I must have it painted black
Maybe then I'll fade away
And not have to face the facts
It's not easy facing up
When your whole world is black

No more will my green sea
Go turn a deeper blue
I could not foresee
This thing happening to you.
If I look hard enough
Into the setting sun,
My love will laugh with me
Before the morning comes

I see a red door
And I want it painted black
No colors anymore
I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by
Dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head
Until my darkness goes

I want to see it painted, painted black
Black as night, black as coal
I want to see the sun blotted out from the sky
I want to see it painted, painted, painted, painted black
Yeah

I have a problem with my feeling if only you knew how I felt.