From Autumn To Ashes Album

Stare into my eyes
Rake your nails across my skin
I know the reason embers of you scatter as you breathe
(embers of you scatter when)
The life you knew disappears
In its wake with one skin
(in its wake your standing in)
As paper I cut your life
(and in paper I cut your life)
Follow the outline that you traced
(Embers of you scatter when)
The life you knew disappears
In its wake you stand with one skin that you do not own
(in its wake your standing in..
as these waves break, there is things i'll miss, things I miss,
and I'm feeling fake, with my whole life on your lips)
The sky is closed today
So here I sit, waiting
For a word that is hidden in Clouds
To take me back from here
(I'm hoping that this fever breaks when this smile spites my face)
Somewhere
Take me back
To a place
I will not
Feel as you
Somewhere
Anywhere

Creation imperfect
Do you defy this?
Could you and your swollen ego fit into my master plan for failure?
I take the shame to heart and lock it away in a place thats sees not the light
of day
I will use it when I see your face again
(your head in your hands and this is my cue,
if three words could heal you I would only speak two,
your eyelids grow heavy and this is my cue,
If three words could heal you i'd only speak two)
How could you think after all you put me through
and all you put on my shoulders that I would answer your cries for help?
(How could you think after all you put me through
and all you put on my shoulders that I would answer your cry for help?)
Unleash the rage built up (in my throat)
Show how you hurt me and hopefully you see

The end result of so many meetings
At late night dinners with no one eating
We sit in corners and sip burnt coffee
Count the tiles upon the ceiling
Skip this pretense and cut straight to dying
Don't pick me to keep your eyes from crying
You said so much without even parting your lips

It's past 3 am and I'm still far from sleep
This is a habit that I can't break
You're my only company
I'm skipping stones

Street lights flicker like this match in my hand [x3]
Begging to strike [x2]

And I keep repeating, but this payphone tele stopped receiving
Flat out of change now I'm sure you won't accept the charges
It's all the same cause by the morning I'll be halfway to Colorado
Or some place like that

You said so much without even parting your lips
It's past 3 am and I'm still far from sleep
This is a habit that I can't break
You're my only company
I'm skipping stones down a south suburban street

She keeps on asking "do you think it hurts much to die"
"It's hurting so much more to stay alive now"
She's gonna find out how much it hurts to die
She laced her perfume up with death
Feel it in my lungs
so I'll pull in the deepest breath

Every breath that I exhale is a sigh -
every breath that I exhale is a sigh of exhaustion.
[repeating throughout]
How sad - this is what your life has
been reduced to - a single room apartment containing no more than a mattress.
The strings have been removed from the blinds and all the outlets have been
painted over. The television screen is streaked with blood smeared from your
knuckles as you were trying to punch it out but you underestimated its
strength, or maybe you just weren't trying hard enough. Startled by a knock
at the door you rise for the first time in two days to answer, but you can
only greet the visitor with one short statement. Hello my first name is
distance and I really don't care if I never wake up again. Hello my name is
distance and I really don't care if I never wake up again. Hello I really
don't care if I never wake up again. I really don't care if I never wake up

The sound of my breath flutters past your ear
Tearing down fear
Grasp your heart strings by their frayed ends to choke down the feeling left
inside
The sands of time slide down your cheek in the form of liquefied dreams
Each one stands for more than the next
You give yourself to all but you
To take all you had and give all thats left
How could you have been so blind?
The shallow waters that you come upon, show how empty your life truly is
You look into the vast nothingness to see something that is not there
You try to discern where to go from here
You try to make sense of this confusion that you have inside (your heart)
And how you can get there.
(this van is on a one way trip we'll rock it straight to hell,
our Crue is Motley and our theatres filled with pain,
across the creek and into your home,
be there by eight because she doesn't want you any other way)
But by a force unknown (held back)
Deep inside you, your veins tied in knots
Bind your blistering hands
To keep you in this world forsaken

"You break my heart into a thousand pieces and you say it's because I deserve
better?"
[Joey, "Dawson's Creek" - Season 4 - "Promicide"]

Emotionless grey skies bleed somber dreams of sorrow
Blackened unseen heart tears a virgins godlike innocence from its pristine
palace
Paint sarcastic smiles upon new wounds
Tears of misery stain scar filled minds
Hatred new like tomorrow flows from bitter memories
Purity now embraced by sinful ideals why
Lifeless tomb rests weary with prowling peering eyes
Silence falls upon deaf ears covered by night
Alone in thought, shaking
Biting tongues of lead at unfit moments
Screaming disbelief with no faith in site

(and her disgust has no borders, no limits to strive for, she bends and breaks
to the rules set by the weak)

She's finally seen she's a beautiful girl with a smile so grand she could stop
the world
Stolen her skin he sews her mouth shut, means nothing to him, her screams just
die out
As she cries out here voice dies out
As she cries out her voice dies out
Love once inside her heart, lay in my hands
Was it asked for?
Was it implied?
What could have been done?

Darkness chokes my emotions
Your breath numbs my soul
Stand with me, by my side
Take my hand and lead the way
Out from the shadows and into the real world
Show me how to live a life owned by regret
My blood runs cold, lifeless in shame
Now is the time, to right the wrong
Inside my veins, poison words lie
Within a mind as guilty as yours
take what is left inside of me
I've no use for it
Stained with thoughts uncaring, open and let me in
(it spun my head when I thought you were talking to me,
i guess I'm just a fool for thinking your thinking of me,
and now, I press my fist to the pillows wishing it was your teeth)
Show your world, deceit
Let me live as you, Need not to feel
Emotions rain down
Drowned by innocence, thoughts escape me
Harsh words spit blindly and open paths of life
Take all that is me, a lifeless somber soul
Curse the day you wake as solace sets in
Darkness chokes my emotions
Your breath numbs my soul
Stand with me, by my side
Take my hand, and lead the way
Out from the shadows and into my world
(My soul is not for you to own)

I felt you slip away
Far away from me
Further from me
You seem to drift far away
I caught myself wishing you back, as I fight to catch you
Anger wells inside me
I see me, frowning, in your eyes
(i see the fear in you where no one should ever be,
i find myself striving to catch you from..
this will hurt me less and less everytime until I feel nothing)
I see my reflection and the pain scripted across my face, set in stone
Anger wells inside of me
I see me, frowning in your eyes
Far away from me
Further from me
You seem to drift far away
I caught myself wishing you back as I strive for you
(she said "its not that I dont love you anymore,
but it would be much more accurate to say that I never loved you in the first
place)
I put the fear in you where noone should ever be
Nothing to me
Everything to you
Nothing to me
Everything to you.

"I can't take it anymore. When I'm with you, I feel like I'm nothing. I feel
like I'm nothing. That's why I flinch when you come to touch me. It's why I
never touch you. Why I never even think about it. Because when I start to, it
just reminds me that I'm not good enough."

In a world of despair, our lives will end
Some without warning, while others die by design
Under watchful eyes, we tread on evil ground,
with jaded eyes around us each step is scrutinized
(in the pouring rain, we speed this car, I try so hard,
wish I was more prepared for this time, you shouldn't have passed before me)
In this life we lead, a choice will be made
Where we go from here, when our time is done
At the gates of heavan, angels stare at us
May they lead you home to where you'll live in peace?
You take without warning
(i'll shut myself up and black out the windows)
As we sit and wait
(its best to consider me dead as well)
Breath in take a life
(I'm hoping in time i'll get over)
Breath out, cleanse your soul
(i might be fine when I get older..no way)
You took her life
I gave you mine, to ease the pain of my soul, to show you how much shes meant to
me
I will fight for our lives and take them to our graves
In a world of despair, our lives will end
Some with out warning, while others die by design
Under watchful eyes we tread on evil ground,
with jaded eyes around us, each step is scrutinized
I will defy you
The evil from above
Open my mind
Let you in
I will not forgive the sins you made

Here you stand seething with guilt.
Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.
The look stapled on your face cries out for forgiveness,
the one thing that I cannot give.

(Did you ever see that one person
and the way they do these things
and it hurts you so much it's like choking choking choking
down the embers)

I can give you freedom from your guilt,
with a flick of my wrist onto yours.
I can give you peace of mind with a forced smile.
I can give you death with the look upon my face.

This is your freedom in a life of fallacy,
with no last kiss and no regrets;
you don't deserve good bye.
This is your freedom in a life of fallacy,
with no last kiss and no good bye.

Here you stand seething with guilt.
Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.

With a short story, the one you add to daily, you are the tragic loss.
No story book ending for this fairy tale of you.
Just the one composed with blood taken from your pen that you hold in your
lifeless hand.
Cry for you. Shed tears. Mourn. Wish the end.
Cry for you. Shed tears. Mourn. Wish the end.

(Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person,
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
You let this one person come down in the most perfect moment.
And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is
A reminder of what I'll never have
I'll never have... I'll never...
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.
But this table for one has become bearable.
I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you.
Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
And you let this one person come down, come down.
I cherish you...I cherish you.
Just say you would do the same for me.
Just say you would do the same for me.
Say you would do the same...
Just say you would do the same for me.
For as much as I love Autumn,

I felt you slip away, far away from me, further from me.
You seem to drift.
I caught myself wishing you back.
As I fight to catch you.
Anger, wells inside me.
I see me, frowning in your eyes.
I see, the fear in you, where none should ever be.
I am here for you, as I strive to grab you.
I see my reflection and the pain scripted across my face, set in stone.
Anger, wells inside me.
I see me, frowning in your eyes.
Far away from me, further from me.
You seem to drift (Far away).
I caught myself wishing you back.
As I fight to catch you.
Slap me, punch me, stab me, kick me, burn me, crucify me, kill me.
Fuck you, hate you, love you, hate myself.
You are nothing to me.
I am everything to you.
You are nothing to me.
I put the fear in you where none should ever be.

Inside me.
Empty, is how you left.
Confused, scared, alone.
I am confused.
I am scared.
I am alone.
I am without you.
You are heartless, without compassion.
I will watch you die
I will not cry.
Haze clouds these translucent eyes.
Sweat creeps down callused hands.
The lies outside, I cannot feel.
The pain inside burns.
And as tears slip, she does it again.
As tears slip she does it again.
Scarred, bruised and broken.
To the ground in tears I fall.
Sadness locked inside me.
Time ticks by, and soon I realize life won't end, it can't end.
Not like this, not without sorrow and not with fear!
I know you are scared, cause I am too.
And as tears slip she does it again.
Haze clouds these translucent eyes.
Sweat creeps down callused hands.
The lies outside, I cannot feel.
The pain inside burns.
I know you cared.
Why did you leave?
From my knees I now stand.
Begging for freedom from my cage.
Now praising life for what I was given.
From my knees I now stand.
Bleeding for you from my heart.

Weight leaves in anger from my shoulders.
Words of wisdom crush hope.
What is real? I thought I knew.
How could I lie to someone, I cared for?
How could you lie to me, your words, pierced me.
For good, this was done.
In the end the truth will shine.
To instill truth in your heart, I beg and plead for you.
A lie from your lips will make me cry out in pain, as I wish for you to go away.
How could I lie to you? I cared for you.
How could you lie to me? Your words pierced me.
The tremble of your soul injects fear into my heart.
I will stand alone.
The gentle mind, the one inside me will never hurt you.
Actions speak louder than words will ever.

[No lyrics]