Eighteen Visions Album

And I wonder?
Where do you get your inspiration?
Where do you find your motivation?
And what motivates me to hold your hand?
And I don't want you to see all these things I hide.
When you were holding my hand I didn't think I'd die.
And I wonder?
Why do you make that midnight drive-by?
When you left me out to hang dry?
Well this rope is tightening
and I don't want you to see all these things I hide.
When you were holding my hand I didn't think I'd die.
Yeah. Yeah.
You couldn't tell me that this was the best that you could do.
And now you've left me to hang here all alone.
And she waits for me.
In her Sunday dress laced with pink and white.
You shouldn't have shut me out.
When you're the one that changed your mind.
You could've change your mind.
While I was sitting here alone.
If you should die before you ask me. . . .how am I?
If you should die before you ask me. . . .for my life.
If you should die before you ask me. . . .if I'd die.
If I'd die with you.
She's innocent but she's got a gun yeah.
She'll hand it over and then she'll run yeah.
I'll pull the trigger. Yeah.
I'll pull the trigger. Yeah.
I'll shoot her up. Yeah.
I'll shoot her up bang.
I want you plastic perfection.
I want to see your vanity.
I want you sexy psychotic so I can see your lunacy.
And I wonder?
Where do you get your inspiration?
Where do you find your motivation?
And what motivates me to hold your hand?
Sweetness. . . This isn't working.
I thought the breath that you'd bring would give me life. Yeah.
And she's a mellow dramatic.
She that that I was romantic, but then the gun went off.
And now I've left you to bleed here all alone.
And I look so beautiful.
In her Sunday dress laced with pink and white.

She couldn't kill me from the start.
She thought that she could break my heart.
I'm not the one that's been held down.
Because you're the one that's letting me go.
See me dancing in the rain.
See me I'm insane.
If you could feel my pain then you'd know.
I'll try to run and hid.
This hot pink Is way too bright.
I'm pretty in pink and these looks could kill if she finds me.
This hot pink is way too bright. Yeah.
I could be so abstract.
I wouldn't tell her the truth.
I could be so abstract.
She wouldn't know what to do.
But would she leave me alone?
If she knew that I was on fire.
She couldn't kill me from the start.
She though she could break my heart.
Yeah. . . you're only holding me down.
Yeah . . . and I won't want you around.
Sugar. Sugar.
Please Leave me alone.
Sugar. Sugar.
I could be so abstract.
So don't you fucking tell me that I'm wrong.

And I can't see why you're cryin loud.
Right down the street you're walking proud.
You fiend. You crave.
You're trippin now.
So in the street you're lyin down.
Wasted down on the couch.
Wasted now you're in doubt.
The sun strikes back.
Breathing.
To burn you down.
Melting.
And in your room.
Wasted.
You're in full bloom.
And I told you. . .you're goin down.
You spit a mouthful of lies.
Another spirit dies.
I'm gonna soften you up.
You spit a moutful of lies.
I cut you under the eyes.
You're just here for the serving.
Wasted down on the couch.
Wasted now you're in doubt.
Scatter brained and hopeless,
you're so godless and sick.
Well here's your misery.
Bite down and grind your teeth away.
Well here's your misery.
Won't live to breath another day.
And I watch you sleep in your river.
I told you right from the start.
I had to settle the score.
You were gonna get it.
I think you spoke too soon.
It's time to lick your wounds.
My fist made the connection.
I think you spoke too soon.
It's time to lick your wounds.
Your pain will be my infliction.
You came to me in acid bath.
Come clean.
You fucking junkie.
I'm gonna throw you away.
You came to me in acid bath.
Come clean.
You fucking sellout.
I'm gonna put you away.
I think you spoke too soon.
It's time to lick your wounds.
My fist made the connection.
I think you spoke too soon.
It's time to lick your wounds.
Your pain will be my infliction.

I don't mind.
Where it goes or where it dies.
I don't mind.
If it shows or if it hides.
I don't mind.
If she's low or if she's high.
I don't mind.
If she flows or if she tries.
I don't mind if she rides.
Don't know if she.
I don't mind.
Where it goes or where it dies.
I don't mind.
If it shows or if it hids.
I don't mind.
If she's low or if she's high.
I don't mind.
If she flows or if she tries.
I don't know if she rides.
Don't know if she.
Will she show her face?
Will she name her place?
If she shows her face will she show disgrace?
I wanna see her standing alone.
She wanted me to drive so she could go for a ride
I said ~Hop on~ cos it's time to get high.
I can't get away from what I got.
She said she'd be my mind.
She said she'd be the one.
Tempt me. Tease me.
Touch me. Please me.
So come trip into my garden lazy.
So come trip into my garden crazy.
So come trip into my garden.
So you stumbled in.
I don't know where to begin.
Why don't you pull up a seat.
It's time for us to get acquainted.
Start ripping.
Start tearin at me.
Start ripping.
Start tearin.
Blue eyes and I'm starin.
So come trip.
Come stroll.
I think it's time for you to high roll.
I can't get away from what I got.
I don't mind.

(No Lyrics - Instrumental)

Let me be the one to breath.
I bathed you in mud to wash away the dirt.
Blaming you for all that hurt.
I let you down and soaked up in your lies, but you're the one that opened my eyes.
I let it go and dropped to my knees.
For your forgiveness I'm begging you please.
Cos' I broke down and soaked up the lies.
You're still the one that opened my eyes.

Let me be the one to breath.
How did you find me?
When I was lying so low.
I've been hiding.
I've been breeding.
What do you want from when I'm bleeding. Disgust. Disgrace.
You'll slap that look right off my face. I'll play god.
I'll play dead. You'll be the one to shoot me in the head.
And I'm waiting. And I'm wanting.
Still hating. Still haunting.
Disbelief and denial.
You're the one that put me one trial.
And I'll try and find out why these things leave me in doubt, but this time I'm wrong.
Let it go. Let it out. And I'll find you. And I'll trust you.
And I'll touch you. And I'll see you. And I'll trust you.
I've been wanting. I've been craving.
All these thoughts are real and I'm shaking.
So cover me in dirt. Bury me with all that's hurt.
What luck have I found?
My head spins round and round.
I found the feel. I found the flow. I found what I've been looking for.
I've been waiting. I've been wanting. I've been craving.
All these thoughts are real and I'm shaking.
So cover me in this dirt. Bury me with all that's hurt.

Contemplation.
Revelation.
You've tried to bury us with pure hatred.
Cos what you think and what you say is loud
so start eating that shit we're gonna feed you now.
I can't believe that you think you're right
when everything that you say comes from out of spit.
So keep living off that shit you wrote.
Say it again and again and again I'm gunna slit your throat.
You're not the only one alone here.
I see names without faces and the faces hid in fear.
Have you felt humility?
Insanity.
It'll drive you crazy so hey you big critic.
Come and get it.
You won't admit it but you'll spit it out.
And you're the one with the scapegoat.
And it's shameful.
You should be hiding your face now.
You'll take a swim and you'll take a dive
and when you're found facedown will you be alive?
You think that you can be heard in your own little world.
You think that you have the time to be writing those lies.
And you all hide your face so I can't see you smile.
Contemplation.
Revelation.
You've tried to bury us with pure hatred.
Cos what you think and what you say is loud
so start eating that shit we're gonna feed you now.
Have you felt humility?
Insanity.
It'll drive you crazy you'll take a swim and you'll take a dive
and when you're found facedown will you be alive?
Can you? Will you?
Keep it down?
I can see why you're jealous now.
The lights shine on us and your lights shut down.
In a sweat you break.
As we take stage: in your mouth is a 12 gauge.
Why don't you pull the trigger.
Or shut up before your head gets bigger.
I think it's time for you to come clean.
So come clean.
Before your envy bleeds blood green.
Misery is placed and I'm talking to you.
Are you feeling alone?
Your tragedy comes son.
Are you feeling alone?
Because your words at you?

One whisper from your breath is all I hear.
One gaze of deep green eyes is all I see.
We don't need to meet to know.
You're all the same to me I hope.
One touch of fingertips is all I feel.
One kiss from your sweet lips is all I taste.
We don't need to meet to know.
You're all the same to me I hope.
One scorn from all your wrath is all I need.
To know of your typicality.
We don't need to meet to know.
You're all the same to me I hope.

Can I get away?
Get away from you.
Cos your broken edge is what told the truth.
Standing: in the corner you start facing the wall alone.
Shaking: you crawl away.
But by now you've been so consume.
You gave it up for a dirty dime a dozen now you're layin in the corner so lonely.
Locked up. Locked down.
So down and out.
I'm watchin you die slowly.
Standing: in the corner you start facing the wall alone.
Shaking: you crawl away.
But by now you've been so consumed.
Can I get away?
Get away from you.
Cos your broken edge is what's killing you.
And I choke at the sight of you.
And I choke.
Yeah you're turning blue.
Do you feel fine now?
Can I get away?
Get away from you.
Cos your broken edge is what's killing you.
Do you feel fine now?
And I choke at the sight of you.
And I choke.
Yeah you're turning blue.

What do you want them all to see?
A blind man with blind faith is he your fuckin enemy?
All he wants to do is survive this painful cancer.
You should be looking for the answer now.
And as the silence breaks.
Give him what he can take.
And he finds it hard to be alone.
And as the silence breaks give him what he can take: a way out.
Why don't you set it aside cos he's got nothing to hide you just put him down.
And as the silence breaks give him what he can take: no way out.
He hides behind the door.
You've got it locked and bolted down.
Cant' see behind the door.
Come out. Come out. Come out.
It's time to show the world.
God gave you wings to fly.
So fly the fuck away.
Come out. Come out. Come out.
And Jesus saves.
God gave you wings to fly.
And as the silence breaks.
Give him what he can take:. A way out.
Why don't you set it aside
cos he's got nothing to hid you just put him down Go!
What do you want them all to see?
A blind man with blind faith is he your fuckin enemy?
Come out. Come out. Come out.

Red lights gleaming screaming.
You entice this time.
Can't you see I'm teething?
Bleeding from inside.
For you I will not lust.
For you I will not bust.
Which way should I go?
Or should I know.
I can't take it back.
I don't want it back.
For you I will not lust for you I will not bust.
So lay me down.
So I can find my peace now.
So lay me down.
Let me be at ease this time.
So lay me down.
Can't stop the way I feel this time this cancer's eating me inside.
Can't stop the way I feel this time this cancer's eating me alive.
For now I'll weep and wallow.
Cos inside I feel so hollow.
Make me out.
Take me out.
Make me out.
To be the one.

(No Lyrics - Instrumental)

I remember when things just weren't the same.
My life went up in smoke.
The end came crashing down on me.
Just when I found this piece of sympathy.
You turned your back.
Walked away after the eulogy.
Can I touch your lips?
Feel the motion of your kiss?
I remember when I first saw your face.
You took my breath away and left without a trace.
So here I stand empty handed point of view.
I took some time.
The search is up and I found you.
Can I touch your lips.
Feel the motion of your kiss?
Where did you go?
It's not the distance keeping you from seeing me.
It ain't the weather changing minds or changing dreams.
It's not the sight of you when I stepped off the plane.
I think that things will be much better off this way.
And when my seasons change:
I might have to pray for rain.
Now that I've found you, you're not leaving me.
Please stay right by my side.
I'll give you everything.
There she goes.
There she goes with me.
Another lonely winter I don't think we'll see.
Where did you go?