Alkaline Trio Album

I gave up on you a long time ago
How can you blame me?
We made plans to meet and you never showed
You kept me waiting
They said everything would work out just fine
They said you’d help me
But as it turns out it was all a lie
And they’re off someplace far away laughing at me

You’ve been there for me one time in my life
But it didn’t matter
You came and went so fast all my hope
And faith in you shattered
And now here I sit alone in this room
No one to confide in
You watched all my dreams come apart at the seams
You laughed, you left, you waited in hiding

Bless me dark father I have sinned
I’ve done it before and I’ll do it again
Cuz it keeps me warm, and makes you smile
Been beneath me all the while
Hell yes

You gave up on me a long time ago
I can’t say I blame you
I rejected the faith in your holy rays
Is what it comes down to
They said everything would work out just fine
I just went crazy
But I’m better now having a good time
Being selfish, and drunken, and vulgar, and lazy

Bless me dark father I have sinned
I’ve done it before and I’ll do it again
Cuz it keeps me warm, and makes you smile
Been beneath me all the while

Bless me dark father I can’t win
Without you I’m as good as dead
Cuz you keep me warm, you make me smile
You’ve been on my shoulder all the while

Whispering sweet nothings
Whispering sweet nothings
Whispering sweet nothings
You’ve been whispering sweet nothings

I've got a regular problem
So my standard break from life is in order
I'm having trouble making sentences
I'm older but I don't feel any smarter
You see I don't know what I said to you
And now you're pissed at you know who
And I guess I deserve it
I wish I could waste my time without wasting all your time
I try to leave a good impression
But it's hard when my obsession's in a wine glass
And when you're only 23
It's not attractive to complain about your sore back
Yes I can bitch until my eyes are blue
And you're in bed with someone new
And I guess you deserve him
Wish I could waste my time without wasting all your time
You say I'm fixable
A classic case, lack of will
I say I don't wanna try
I'd rather stay here all night

I've got a motivation problem
So my standard break from life is getting longer
Spent over 30 hours in this bed
In two days, I guess I could've phoned her
But now that I'm awake
I'd rather take a drink
And walk down to the lake
And beg the sky for lightning bolts
I can't waste my time without wasting all your time
You say it's fixable
A classic case, lack of will
I say I don't wanna try
I'd rather sit here all night

I thought that you were joking
When you said you couldn't breathe
You said you couldn't breathe
Turns out that you were choking
On a town you couldn't leave
You knew you'd never leave
It met your disapproval at the age of 8 years old
You were only 8 years old
From then on there was no removal
From that one way dead end road
That one way dead end road

I thought that you were laughing
When you cried your eyeballs out
You cried your eyeballs out
And i don't mean to be prying
But what were you so sad about
What are you still sad about
Met your disappointment at the age of 9 years old
You were only 9 years old
From then on there would be no ointment
To take away these burns
To make that pain grow dull and forever ain't that long
When your smile's stuck in your head like a pop song
All you think about is death
Your dirty head has gone unswept for way too long now
For way too long now

I thought that you were sleeping
When i found you there in bed
I found you there in bed
When i touched you you were freezing
It turned out that you were dead
It turned out that you were dead
It met your disapproval at the age of 8 years old
You were only 8 years old
From then on there was no removal
From your fucked up head and your broken home and forever ain't that long
When your smile's stuck in your head like a pop song
All you think about is death
Your dirty head has gone unswept for way too long now
For way too long now
For way too long now
For way too long now

I'm alone
Sitting with my empty glass
My four walls
Follow me through my past
I was on a Paris train
I emerged in London rain
And you were waiting there
Swimming through apologies

I remember searching for the perfect words
I was hoping you might change your mind
I remember a soldier sleeping next to me
Riding on the metro

You wore white
Smiling as you took my hand
So removed
We spoke of wintertime in France
Minutes passed with shallow words
Years have passed and still I hurt, oh
I can see you now
Smiling as I pulled away

I remember a letter wrinkled in my hand
I love you always filled my eyes
I remember the night we walked along the Seine
Riding on the metro

I remember a feeling coming over me
The soldier turned, then looked away
I remember hating you for loving me
Riding on the metro

I'm alone
Sitting with my broken glass
My four walls
Follow me through my past
I was on a Paris train
I emerged in London rain
And you were waiting there
Swimming through apologies
(Fuck off, asshole)

I remember searching for the perfect words
I was hoping you might change your mind
I remember a soldier sleeping next to me
Riding on the metro

It's been a long time since I've been close to you
It's been a long time since I've been sad.
It's been a while since I've really spent time with you
Wish I could take back the times that I had.
The only thing that you ever really did for me
Was make me oh so miserable.
And the hope that I never see your face again
Is anything but questionable.

I hope this is goodbye.
I hope this is goodbye.

There was a time when I thought you were a friend to me
I think those times I was probably just drunk.
And if they offered a test about being a good friend
I'd put money down that you'd surely flunk.
The only thing that you ever really took from me
Were my records to sell them for dope.
Now all I have left is this heart in my chest
And my happiness helping me cope

I hope this is goodbye (4x)

It's been a long time since I've been close to you.
It's been a long time since I've been sad.
It's been a while since I've really spent time with you.
Wish I could take back the times that I had.
The only thing that you ever really did for me
Was make me oh so miserable.
And the hope that I never see your face again
Is anything but questionable.
There was a time that I thought you were a friend to me
I think those times I was probably just drunk.
And if they offered a test about being a good friend
I'd put money down that you'd surely flunk.
The only thing that you ever really took from me were my records to
Hawk them for dope.
Now all I have left is this heart in my chest,
Your dishonesty helping me cope.

I hope this is goodbye.
I hope this is goodbye....

There's a fire forming
not too far from here.
Out on the east coast maybe
it resides in you my dear.
We're worn out on all courtesy
we've made our curtain calls.
Like vampire bats deprived of blood
into the New York City night we crawl.
And you've got a funny way of showing
off your bathroom surgery.
You said you were just cooling down
from plans of leaving me.
There something i should tell you
for we may not have much time...
I've never met arms like yours.
And the stars at night are big and
bright deep in your eyes miss vincent.
You told me once i made you smile
we both know damn well i didn't.
I'm not much of a jester
but i'd test poison food for you your majesty.
You're royal blue.
I'm loyalty, my king of pain.
There's a hard rain falling,
flooding your attic it's clear.
It can't put out the fire
that resides in you my dear.
There's something i should tell you
for we may not have much time.
I've never seen scars like yours.

There’s a hope in my head
That’s been cut and bled
Dry as your bloodshot eyes
And there’s smoke in the air
And it’s soon to clear
Revealing our demise
There are some who say
That it’s a-ok
If it makes you feel alright
This is way too bad
Now you’re worse than sad
All locked up there inside

And I don’t know how you feel
But I’ll make you a deal
If u make it out alive
My shoulders and ears are yours my dear
I hope it comes as no surprise
You’ve been known to say that you’re a-ok
When you’re feeling sick inside
I just want you to know
I’ve got no place to go
Until the day you die

While you’re waiting
Be thankful for your fingers
I’ll be fading
With the colors of your pictures
I’m not crying wolf you whispered
I’m really dead this time
I’m really dead this time

There’s a hope in my head
That’s been cut and bled
Dry as your bloodshot eyes
And there’s smoke in the air
And it’s soon to clear
Revealing our demise
You’ve been known to say that you’re a-ok
When you’re feeling dead inside
I just want you to know
I’ve got no place to go
Until the day you die

While you’re waiting
Be thankful for your fingers
I’ll be fading
With the colors of your pictures
I’m not crying wolf you whispered
I’m really dead this time
I’m really dead this time

They locked you up
They threw away the key
Sutured your mouth shut
Murdered your family
Right before your eyes
What could you do
Right before your eyes
They took it all from you

Contemplating
You hanging from your ceiling
Can't help hating
You for having that feeling
I’m not joking when I tell you
I miss you all the time
I already miss you all the time

I got the scars to remind me
of watching clocks go round
worked myself through somedays
but it put me where i am

in another time in another place
loving might have been in place
but for now im finding myself
fighting standing on the rooftops screaming

hey world are you listening?
listen to me
Im here and Im willing
to begin again

Its another time its another place
we are making moral pace
but for now im finding myself fighting
standing on the doorsteps screaming

hey world are you listening?
listen to me
I'm here and I'm willing
to begin again

Hey world
im ready to listen
learn something new
I'm here and I'm willing
to get us all through

I got these thoughts in my head
dirty as fuck and never leaving
and then best left unsaid
all the drinks under breath

got some shit off my chest
put on my back next to the monkey nest
that somebody left
with me the day I was born

I got a hole in my head
the size of lake fuckin' michigan
my pipes lined in lead
got old school reasons to die

all my money's been spent
on a face lift via alochol
this sinner repents
to an empty bathroom reflection

please take these two words
and do with them what you would like
It's a dream I had, drove me mad
just your time, just my fucking life

I got a bottle in hand
straight to the ground with all my memories
It's best left unsaid
when they've all been left behind

all my money's been spent
on a DIY lobotomy
this sinner repents
to a lake and bathroom mirror

please take these two words
and do with them what you would like
it's a dream I had, drove me mad
just your time, just my fucking life

so take these two words
and do with them what you would like
it's a dream you had, drove me mad
just your time, just my fucking life

and that's my life
over and over again
just my fucking life

it might seem meaningless to you
but it means everything to me
and I'm fucked without you

please take these words
and do with them what you would like
it's a dream I had, drove me mad
just your time, just my fucking life

and that's my life
over and over again
just my fucking life

I can't go on
You said my head's too heavy
I need that song
those trusty chords could pull me through
and early on
they saw the warning signs and symptoms all day long
we sit and dream of better days
where we'd hit the ground running on empty
stories we've been told
and all those nights we spent together never felt this fucking cold
when we let the car run in the driveway
kiss you one last time
before we brought the horse's in before the storm of '59'!
of 59' [x2]

i cant go on these limbs have grown to heavy
i need that song a night on earth could pull me through
and early on
they saw the warning signs and symptoms all day long
wonder how far from here we'll fall
before we hit the ground running on empty
stories we've been told
and all those nights we spent together never felt this fucking cold
when we let the car run in the driveway
kiss you one last time
before we brought the horse's in before the storm of '59'!
of 59' [x4]

"Well I’ll sit here to convince myself its true
If you keep on telling your friends that we’re through
I got nothing here but loneliness
Holes in walls and bleeding fists
My head is pounding like a pillow
Like a big black song

My friends and I try to tell me you’re gone
Won’t listen to myself or anyone
You got on a plane and off you went
You’re never coming back again
I’m trying to convince myself it’s true
Convincing myself

I’ll be just fine without you (x3)
I’ll be here telling myself it’s true

Well I sit here to convince myself its true
If you keep on pretending to have no clue
That I’d kill for you and eat the flesh
Give you the heart and burn the rest
A thousand miles ain’t shit to walk
If I’m walking to hold you

I’ll be just fine without you (x3)
I’ll be here telling myself…
I’ll be just fine without you (x5)
I’ll be here telling myself it’s true"

Sit down and please make yourself comfortable
I might need some time to dance around what I need to say
I love you to death
I think I need a break

I spend my days worrying out loud
I gag in my head, I choke it back down
It hurts me inside to save you inside
So close my lips tight
Move eyes to the side

This is the way we disappear
It's easy if you burn out like a star
This is the way we disappear
It's easy like a 50-foot fall
I'm waiting for whatever bit of time
To admit these words that
That I’m planning in my mind
I’m hating every minute that I don’t speak aloud
Like when you lay it down
You lay it down
You lay it down

Relax on this bed of nails
On this plastic sheet
Your blood leaves a trail
Right back to me
A problem you see
Will you please allow a moment to think

This is the way we disappear
It's easy if you burn out like a star
This is the way we disappear
It's easy like a 50-foot fall
I'm waiting for whatever bit of time
To admit these words that
That I’m planning in my mind
I’m hating every minute that I don’t speak aloud
Like when you lay it down
You lay it down
You lay it down

a deep dark secret down at the bottom
but this bay can't keep it unforgotten
and a story that was told has now grown taller than we'd ever wish it to be
beyond belief...
i'll grab the boat if you go grab the anchor,
the tarp and twine and the weights that sank her
they weren't enough to look who showed up
a new light shed is shining through
illuminating you as we lay
side be side, dead and broken
our lives aren't the same since the night yours went stolen
blood ran black beneath the moonlight. your lover's blood ran cold
cutting off the hands he used to hold

you're on your own my little nightmare, you cannot stay here
it's far too bright for you. if they attack you just lay there,
play dead dear, it's your only hope of pulling through
and seconds they seem like a lifetime
a dream, recurring, a dream that can't come true
and they'll pin it all on you
after you've been put through
"saide g. she's crazy, see?"
that's what the white coats say
now ms. susan a. is losing
every opportunity to put us all away
you're on your own my little nightmare
your job is done here
you've scared them all to death
if they revive them just sit there
just smile dear. make them thankful for every breath
this sentence may seem like a lifetime,
a scream, that curdling
the blood they found on you
and your knives and clothing too
charlie's broken .22
well they found you
and they shipped you up the river
the same way
that you bound and gagged
you shot and stabbed
you tried to get them free
but they've thrown away the keys

If you had a bad time at one of my parties,
I wouldn't ecpect to be seeing you soon, and that's fine.
You have to know what and why those things make you happy,
You have to know that second guess ain't worth a try.
Just one word of advice, maybe you've heard them before but here goes

Just try be true to yourself if it lands you in hell,
well at least then you know
Loud and clear is your heart,
big and bright are the places you might someday go.
With one million things tying you down,
why you're one of those things I don't know.
No big deal, gotta go
If you're up to your ears in blood, sweat, and wasted years
Well i'm hoping you're going to open your throat and just scream.
You have to know who and why, which ones miss you when you die.
You have to know that a second guess ain't worth
the salt in your eyes.
Just try be true to yourself if it lands you in hell,
well at least then you know
Loud and clear is your heart,
big and bright are the places you might someday go.
With one million things tying you down,
why you're one of those things I don't know.

No big deal, it just site on my shoulders,
you're breaking my neck.
We get crazy with age
now you're under my bed
And it s dark
all the time

Just try be true to yourself if it lands you in hell,
well at least then you know
Loud and clear is your heart,
big and bright are the places you might someday go.
With one million things tying you down,
why you're one of those things I don't know.
No big deal, here I go

"Don’t you ask me to come out
When the sun does shine
Rather stay here with curtains drawn
In darkness you’ll be mine

Let’s wait for the blackout
The light is too bright
Let’s wait for the blackout
Wait for the night

Well welcome to my basement flat
No windows to see through
When darkness falls again my friend
We’ll both know what to do

Let’s wait for the blackout
The light is too bright
Let’s wait for the blackout
Wait for the night

Wait for the blackout
The light is too bright
Let’s wait for the blackout
Wait for the night

Come walk with me upon the earth
It keeps us both alive
No other thing can last in here
Where we can both survive

Let’s wait for the blackout
The light is too bright
Let’s wait for the blackout
Wait for the night
Wait for the night

In darkness there is no sin
Light only brings in fear
Nothing to corrupt the eyes
There is no vision here

At first you may find it strange
But please don’t go away
There’s power in the nighttime
That you won’t find in the day

There is no vision here
There is no vision here
No vision here"

We can never break up
We can never not show
We can never go home
No, we can never elope

We've only got one choice
So let's keep making it
And making it
Making it
And making it

A lot of things can change
A lot of tears will dry
There's no way out of your head
I can't still drink like I'm trying

I never had to work too hard
Let's keep working it
And working it
Working it
And working it

You're like a test, I can't fuck up
You're like a song in my head, like a la la la la la like a dream
Don't wake me up and if I never see the light again
Well I guess they put me in the ground with this smile on my head, my love
My love

We can never break up
We can never not show
We can never go home
And we can never elope

We've only got one choice
So let's keep making it
And making it
Making it
And making it

You're like a test, I can't fuck up
You're like a song in my head, like a la la la la la like a dream
Don't wake me up and if I never see the light again
Well I guess they put me underground with this smile on my head, my love
My love [9x]

it's a girl in here, not as sweet as you
it's a guy like me, some bad tattoos
an empty bar filling up with smoke
and i cry in the ashes, I'm 3 days old

so please don't say you wont be going out today
cause anywhere i go, wont be anything,
if your not hanging around

it's the blackest cloud,
and it opens up
when i walk outside, and i'm all alone
an empty cell, the furnace chokes,
when i walk through the door, of my broken home

so please don't say you wont be going out today
cause anywhere i go, wont be anything,
if your not hanging around
cause anywhere i go, wont be anything,
if your not hanging around

please don't say you wont
please don't say you wont
cause anywhere i go, wont be anything,
if your not hanging around
cause anywhere i go, wont be anything,
if your not hanging around

I'm awake
It was a half bad dream
That was way too long
My whole life it seemed
That someone started digging me up
Turned my headstone into dust

The sun was swallowed by the trees
The night was here for good
You pulled my hand and my head up
You put oxygen into my blood
You walked me through the gates like we were visitors for the day
You laid me down in the back seat
And you drove till I woke up to hear you say

You never lie but it's no fun to tell the truth
I guess I never loved but I will see what I can do
Got so much life to waste that I would take my days and hand them to you

I'm awake
It was a half bad dream
That was way too long
My whole life it seemed
That someone started digging me up
Turned my headstone into dust

I know you never lie but it's no fun to tell the truth
I guess I never loved but I will see what I can do
Got so much life to waste that I would take my days and hand them to you

I know you never lie but its so hard to tell the truth
I guess I never loved but I will see what I can do
Got so much life to waste that I would take my days and hand them to you
To you.

Calling all cars or coroners, we got a dead one here
And anybody else receiving this, the west coast is far from clear
Like a time bomb, a sudden death
It's gonna find you when you least expect
It's gonna leave you the emptiest feeling inside

They found me face down in the street
On the night you left to find, another place to sleep
In rain and regret
They said they tried everything but it was no use
Yeah, they tried everything and everyone but you

Falling like stars into the ocean black, we're gonna disappear
And anything left recognizable is swept away with fear

We got our heart stripped in time release
We got the know-how and the elbow grease
We got our victim all cut up down here on the floor

They found me face down in the street
On the night you left to find, another place to sleep
In rain and regret
They said they tried everything but it was no use
Yeah, they tried everything and everyone but you

...One but you
...One but you

They found me face down in the street
On the night you left to find, another place to sleep
In rain and regret
They said they tried everything but it was no use
Yeah, they tried everything and everyone but you.

I've got a regular problem
So my standard break from life is in order
I'm having trouble making sentences
I'm older but I don't feel any smarter
You see I don't know what I said to you
And now you're pissed at you know who
And I guess I deserve it
I wish I could waste my time without wasting all your time
I try to leave a good impression
But it's hard when my obsession's in a wine glass
And when you're only 23
It's not attractive to complain about your sore back
Yes I can bitch until my eyes are blue
And you're in bed with someone new
And I guess you deserve him
Wish I could waste my time without wasting all your time
You say I'm fixable
A classic case, lack of will
I say I don't wanna try
I'd rather stay here all night

I've got a motivation problem
So my standard break from life is getting longer
Spent over 30 hours in this bed
In two days, I guess I could've phoned her
But now that I'm awake
I'd rather take a drink
And walk down to the lake
And beg the sky for lightning bolts
I can't waste my time without wasting all your time
You say it's fixable
A classic case, lack of will
I say I don't wanna try
I'd rather sit here all night

i'm dying tomorrow
this house this street chicago
i'm dying tomorrow
did i did i do it right

did i remember to sleep in
take lots of pills
commit irreversible sins
did i did i at least try
to kiss the prettiest girl
at the right time
did i remember to keep your beer as full as mine
did i did i remember to say cheers
did i did i at least try
to make sure everybody had a good time
had the best time

i'm dying tomorrow
in this house, this street, chicago
i'm dying tomorrow
did i did i do it right
did i remember to stay up late
drinking for the fun
singing for the taste
did i did i run outside
to kiss the rain under electrical skys
did i remember to keep your beer as full as mine
did i did i remember to say cheers
did i did i at least try to make sure everybody had a good time
had the best time

i'm dying tomorrow
in this house, on this street, chicago
i'm dying tomorrow
did i did i do it right?